Here is the start of possibly the most boring blog ever posted. We'll see. I am very tired and depressed and bored today, but surrounded by tons of things to accomplish and a young whirlwind of a child who needs a lot of attention.

Hopefully I can work some things out in this format regarding what goes on in my marriage so as not to blast it all over my husband someday in anger and frustration. Part of my depression stems from seeing the wealth of loving affection poured out to my child by my husband and remembering very sadly and wistfully how I used to receive that kind of loving affection from him in the past. Maybe it's because I'm so big, maybe it's because this marriage is getting on in years, maybe it's because I have hurt him in the past but my child hasn't, so it's easy for him to love that kid to pieces while sometimes noticing me, sometimes not. I am probably way too selfish for anyone's good, including my own.

I expect this blog will show ups and downs, hopefully more of one than the other.
- posted by blueskies16 @ Friday, August 22, 2003